The weirdest dream ever

I got the weirdest dream today.
And what's weirder is that I woke up 3 times in between and managed to continue what I'm dreaming about.


I don't know if I'm gonna be shy about it, but I dreamt of having a relationship with Shane Filan of Westlife and we were hanging around Duty Free with other Westlife guys, shopping for our loved ones.


Of all places to hang out? Why do my dreams chose at Duty Free? haha! But what's cool is that I loved the feeling that I am the girlfriend of Shane Filan because I'm head over heels in love with him and his voice right now after seeing him during their concert in Manila.


I have confessed that I wanted someone like him when I got married. Someone who looks like him. Someone who can sing and dance well like him. Lord, please grant me that guy I'm praying to you right now. I'm willing to wait, as long as you'll give me the guy that I deserve. A guy like Shane! ♥

Random rant for the day!

So here I am polishing my nails at the back of someone using some random social networking site when she suddenly opened facebook, key in her username and password (with a bit of moving sideward in order to hide her password). I am the only living person with her on that moment so in that case it means she thinks I am sneaky trying to steal her password and do something with her facebook account.

So what does that mean? Am i really that kind of person? gademet. I don't have any intention of stealing that stupid password and sneak into her account because there's nothing really worthy to steal in the first place. I know it's a password, but please... stop moving sideward as if getting protective from someone who might steal it.

I WILL NEVER EVER GET THAT. NO INTENTIONS, WHATSOEVER!

-RANT RELEASED. BLISSFUL NOW.-

That sudden... ( i can't explain what)

That sudden... (i can't exactly explain what) came rushing into me when i saw that itsy bitsy heart icon (just like this ---> ♥) on top of his profile found on that very popular book in SNS today. It wasn't there last Friday or even last week because I checked that first thing before looking at his pictures. That made me sad, honestly. But,  why be sad? Everything's still possible. And, besides, David Archie is still single. :)

That sudden (i can't exactly explain what) came rushing into me when I saw that he got like 3 gfs this year? Like she's 1 then there's the other 1 and another 1 earlier this year. O_O Okay.. starting to get turned off now. From 85% to 80% level of admiration.

That sudden (i can't exactly explain what) came rushing into me when I saw that his birthday is somewhat between December 8 to 10. Same birthday as my first crush / love ever. Another Sagitarrian huh? All men who fall under Sagitarrius are not meant for me. They are meant to be just MY friends or mere decorations in my life.

That sudden (i can't exactly explain what) came rushing into me when I realized that it's me who is rushing things again. Hush and big slap to my face. I never LEARN. Focus. FOCUS.

That sudden (i can't exactly explain what) came rushing into me when I realized that I am a certified walking facebook stalker! gross!

Rant for the day!

I blocked a friend in facebook, and it's my first time to do it.
Because I deleted the other one. (HAHA!)
Facebook is someone's medium to share the things that you've done or is doing at the moment and no one should ever criticize or make some nonsense / undesirable comment about it.
One of my friend  ex friend used to comment on me nicely just a couple of months ago.
But now, she is just the rudest ever. She did it to me for the 3rd time and I've had enough.
So now, SHE IS BLOCKED!
And thankful about it because she really deserves it.


CHANGE TOPIC:
Me and my friends went out today for a movie / dinner date. We watched Crazy, Stupid Love starring Steve Carell and Ryan Gosling. ♥ I'll be posting a different blog post for my insights about the movie, so stay tuned!
On a different note, we met up with one of our long lost college girlfriends! We funnily name it as the "Return of Maann" because we missed her more than a year until today. Thank God she's no longer busy with all her work. Work nga ba?


As soon as you've been part of our group, you'll always be asked about your lovelife and Maann was placed in hotseat for today. hahahaha! I just can't get it lang kasi she likes someone in the office but then she kept on thinking about her work and something like she'll get distracted.
Isn't it your crush is your number one inspiration to keep you moving and continue work?
I'm not really in support with Maann's decision about it because she might be losing lots of opportunity that may not happen again in a milliom years.
But she said she's not a risk taker when it comes to love.


I'm vastly different. I risk love and prepare myself from getting hurt.
I've experienced it twice... and I'm not yet ready to have another round of it.
I just pray to God that someday he'll give someone like the guy I met during our senior prom.
Because up until now I regret some things that had happened that should never happen in the first place. :(

Random rant for the day!

I'm really happy! I saw my crush on facebook!
I mean, OMG! My stalker functions are still working! I am the happiest girl today. 
BUT MAYBE NOT.
Because I found out that he is from the land of the green archers.
Eh I've got phobia not with them. Most especially with that a**hole guy whom I met more than a year ago.
I honestly admit that my feelings of admiration for this guy was broken down from 90% to 80%.
Still not bad? High average for my feelings.
Eh kasi naman, he is soo nice, he got those eyes that makes me smile whenever I see it. (Yes, it's because of his contact lenses maybe?). And he looks like my first crush / first love / first cry way back highschool days.
This might sound melodramatic but I don't really want to associate those persons that I've met before (meaning persons from my past) to those whom i just met recently, but they do actually look the same. I swear!


I do hope and pray that everything happens slowly so that it won't fade at once. <3
I need an inspiration to continue life everyday! Thank goodness I found one. :)

Random rant for the day!

This rant was supposed to be ranted last Tuesday, August 16. But since I don't have enough time, today may be the best for it. But if ever I blogged about it on that same day that "it" happened, this must be a much emotional blog post. 


Just another ordinary tuesday at the office. Focused on work, deadlines and upcoming events under my sleeves. When all of a sudden this guy walked into our department and talked to my officemate. He's a bit ranting actually and I don't like his rants. He is this type of mayabang, presko guy just because he studied at this well known school here in PH and so on and so forth. I don't really like this type of guys eh. I hate them and I don't want myself to be around or oriented with them. Turns me off big time! 


After like 30 minutes, he decided to leave and went somewhere I don't know and care. Then after a while I just heard hi say "Akin yung bago ah.." and then re-appeared at the side of my table, lurking and looking like a maniac or something. He re-introduced his name and asked for my hand for what I thought a "handshake" which is totally wrong. He grabbed my hand and kissed it. LIKE YUCKERZ!  Where on earth did you have the guts to do that to me? ewwww. you! screw you! Of all people na I hate at first sight, here he goes kissing my hand. ALL I NEED IS A HANDSHAKE and PLEASE OFF YOU GO OUT OF MY SIGHT.


And then hindi pa nakuntento sa handshake, naglinger pa sya around my area and keeps on bugging me to join him on my way home. Keeps asking me where to I live or do I have a car or will someone pick me up. Hello, even if I don't have any transpo penny, I'd rather walk than go with you inside your car. ugh.


Then he asked for my number. Like how can I possibly not give it to him. Kadiri that guy. He even invited me to a drinking party tomorrow. We'll be having an event, so I'm busy, okay? Buti na lang he isn't bugging me or anything sa cellphone. Thank god!


I shared this to my guy bestfriend and he told me to be snobbish with him. Tarayan ko daw! Eh I don't know how to do it. I'm not mataray eh and that really sucks! Can someone please teach me how to be snobbish? I direly need it now! 


HELP! :(

Yes, I am nervous

So my parents asked me during dinner: "Are you excited for Monday?"
I nod, then I opt to to have a change of topic before they start on something.
I kinda lied with the nodding part. Honestly, I am not excited. I am very nervous.
Because by Monday, I'll be back to work as a Marketing Specialist.


I keep on posting tweets on my twitter wall about being excited for Monday, about looking forward for something good coming my way. But I think all of these are just my defense mechanisms, when in fact, I am too scared to start and would rather choose to update my online shop for the rest of my life.


I came from an Advertising company where everything is loud, ragged and different. For the past months I've been used to entering an office where everyone is on their jeans, playing  some loud music, shouts to one another or simply put it: Curse one another like its just some normal act to do. I've been exposed to these kind of environment. Very advertising in nature, I must say.


And now, as I decide to shift and go back to where I truly belong, I'm gonna take a new road in the world of marketing. But thank God events are still with me. It's totally a new workplace. Feels like everything is too professional and conservative, quiet and peaceful? I bet no ones gonna curse every single time. *laughs*


By Monday, everything's gonna change. I'll say goodbye to all my advertising account manager duties and welcome the tasks of a marketing specialist. I bet my responsibilities will somewhat be similar, but you can never bet on the word "similar" when the people and the environment is vastly different.


So please, help me God! :)

Hello, text me!

I've been waiting for that one SMS, (do take note that this is not from any employer), and I got it last June 19.
Then I remember the every 18th *supposed to be* monthsary.
And yet, I just cannot make myself conclude to such vague idea.


Hoping for a better result, and to re-start the friendship - I replied at once.
It'll be July 19 soon and I haven't received any reply yet. Sometimes it doesn't really bother me but whenever it comes to my mind, I feel so pissed, irritated and hopeless. I'm, being the same childlike person again, the one which ruined our friendship.


Sometimes, I honestly think of the "what ifs".
What if we are still friends? What if I'm a little bit mature when we met? What if I just let go of the idea that you'll be the one someday?


Heck, it was ruined. And everything's really hard to put up together and act as if everything's normal. As if nothing happened. Because it was ruined. And you cannot make it perfect anymore because it was perfect before. :(


So to end this entry, I choose to upload a pic of Winnie the Pooh. Because there's a significant connection of this to him.

Emotional day

I don't know what's bugging me lately. I do blame it to reading the "Last Song" novel of Nicholas Sparks. I don't like the flow of the story. Of course, in every Nicholas Sparks novel someone dies. And in this novel, Ronnie's Father died. Never have a cried for a novel, so this my first time. And I don't like it. I won't be finishing the book, and I won't be reading anymore Nicholas Sparks' novel. I'm such a cry baby.


Then this morning, I caught myself crying. It was around 5:30am. Then my alarm rang - 6:45am. Then I woke up suddenly around 7:30am. Dang! Im late for my 9am appointment!


2 reasons:
1. I cried this morning because I had a dream that my Father is leaving again. He's on vacation now for 2 months and at this stage, I want to be with him often.
2. I'm worried because my Father is acting a bit strange today. I do hope there's no health reasons involved. Just thinking about it makes me cry again. 


Yes, the years that I've been together with my Dad isn't enough most especially during my growing up years. But all his support, care and love has and will always be present. I love my Father and Mother so much that I'm doing everything now for them. It is time to give back all the things that they've done for me and I really thank God for giving me this opportunity.


I love my Father so much that I don't want anything bad happen to him. I want him to live for another 50 years, same goes for my Mother. I've been crying just by thinking some bad thoughts. So please God, help me to forget those unhappy thoughts and live my emotional head. :'(

Pilipinas Got Talent 2, Finals night

I haven't watched the full show, but I started the contestant's final performance from the Madrigal Siblings upto the last one. Im quite sad because I wasn't able to see the magical performance of Rico the Magician. But with all that I've seen, here's my top 3:


1. Madrigal Siblings
2. Rico the Magician
3. Marcelito Po Moy
*Reserve: Angela: hula-hooper


I love how the Madrigal Siblings delivered their performance, really superb and is worth watching for a finals night. These kids really did their best and there's nothing they have to be sad about up until the end of the season. They deserve to be the winner.


As for Rico the Magician, yes I know I wasn't able to see how he did his magic this time, but as for the looks of it - - super sure that he'll be one of the top 3 (based on the performance, alright?). Ever since we set eyes on Mang Rico, he did magic ala Criss Angel and David Blaine. If the Madrigal Siblings won't win, I want him instead.


Marcelito Po Moy! He did chose the best song for tonight. He deserve a standing-ovation from the audience and from the judges as well. As for me, I just don't want another singer (solo) to win the title. But if God allows it, so be it. He did well too.


As for Angela, she's one of the highlights most especially by hula-hooping those hula-hoops with fire on it. She did a lot of stunts and I can say that she did her best as well. Medyo nakakabitin lang! Maybe she could have added a little more so that nabusog talaga niya yung audience nya. Hence, I made her my reserve choice.


Let's see if the Filipinos made the right decision. So again, vote wisely BASED on the VALUE of the PERFORMANCE and not just becauce he is pogi, gwapo or whatsoever!

Paraluman CD - IN LAB (not): The MEAN edition

So this, I've been fixing my things lately because all of my stuffs had been soo crowded and messy to the point that I need to have a GARAGE SALE, soon! While fixing my things, I found this:

This is not good! I've been keeping this CD for like a year or two? (can't barely remember, actually) I don't want keeping stuffs that are not my stuffs. So please, give time to get your CD. 


Please look for this man:

But he actually resemble this one:

HAHA! kidding! As what the saying goes: Bato-bato sa langit, ang tamaan, sapul!


Yours truly:

Dear Typhoon Falcon,

Lots of good things happened to me today. Let me share you my list:


1. I got my Job Offer. Thank You Lord! I am part of an international company, finally.  Italy, here I come! :p This time, this company is the luckiest because I'll stay with them until the dreaded 2012 end of the world. If this will not happen, that's the right time for a career shift.


2. Lots of good foods to eat. Isn't it very enjoyable to eat everytime we're experiencing a bad weather. It's like I just wanted to munch on everything that is available in the fridge.


3. No rice for dinner - 2 straight nights. Woohoo! It is indeed time for a serious diet mode on!


4. Loving the cold weather. I don't have to sweat and worry about my blackheads and rashes on my face. :)


I may be too selfish if I'll say that I love the rainy weather and that I hope this will stay (without the heavy rains of course), because lots of people were affected and are still affected by the damages caused by you, Falcon but I'll be a hypocrite if I'll say that you must go away right at this moment. So, I will be leaving your future to Mother Nature, but thank you for being a part of my happiness today.


Love,


Marielle :)

In with the old?

I do hope you're my good karma. 
Swallowed all my pride for the sake of my friend, but I guess it isn't for my friend in the first place.
Just what my Mom had told me, I better end all the "tampo" I had with this certain guy and start being friends with him again.
But I can say he is my first real heartbreak.
Puppy love, whatever you call it. 


I guess all the bitter endings I had ended tonight because he finally talked to me tonight, back to where it all ended 5 years ago.
After a month of swallowing my pride, here he is talking to me through a quote?
Grabe lang talaga, nothing has changed. Baduy pa rin sya. haha!
Imagine, uso pa rin pala sa kanya ang mga quotes? Not in my world. Puro conversation texts na, uy!
But maybe, he texted me that in order to test whether I'll say hello or what.
Weird, you are.


But whenever I think of him, I am always in the mood to go diet.
You made me smile.
I hope you are my good karma. :)

Happy Father's Day

Lots of Good Vibes for today.

Got another opportunity for a multinational / pharmaceutical company. 

I don't know where should I be during these times. Maybe, I just have to grab every opportunity that goes my way. I know that God will put me to some place where I truly deserve.

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At some point, there are things that I regret doing and I'm regretting something now. 

A couple of weeks ago, I gave my number to someone who is a friend of this guy who faithfully keeps on asking my number fore almost a year now.

And as for my part, I faithfully reject him and kept my number away from him.

And here I am,  giving my number to his friend/sidekick without thinking that sooner or later she will give it to the guy.

Im just the most stupid girl on earth.

And here;s my stupid plan: To do not text him at any cost. Diba it will look like I am the most suplada girl in the world? But that's how I'm really feeling right now. I will not reply him ever. If I'll reply, maybe after a day or two.

(But it still means I'll reply him, right?)

Okay. I just don't like this feeling. Some things are just not right. And maybe he should have befriended me way back college days. Hello!

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But amidst all the confusion I am undergoing nowadays, Happy Father's Day to my Dad.

He is here to be with my Mom to celebrate Father's Day. I honestly do not remember when's the last Father's Day I've celebrated with him. I am just too grateful and thankful to God for giving me this opportunity to spend this Father's Day with my Dad. I know I am lucky to have him in my life. :)

Gray area of life

Last 2 weeks was like "reminiscing the past" weeks.
I've encountered guys who have been a part of my life in one way or another.
I won't drop names or anything.
Everything's in gray area.


FIRST:
Because one of my friends is in "dire need" (let's term it in a dramatic way :p) to be friends with this particualr person. Let's just say that this person is an inspiration to my friend for like 5 tears already. Though there are times that it is being forgotten, the feeling still lingers on. Why, thank you to "Water for Elephants" movie, some things that were like patches before are somewhat clearing up.


A day after we've been talking about this guy, I saw him naman sa mall. Like it's somewhat a destiny to be seeing him again after, what.. a year or two? Now, the problem lies on me because our friendship ended up not in a way that we wanted it to be. I was too childish that time, and he's not yet that mature so not one of us is serious. It's like everything's just like a game, something like a beneficial game. And as young as I was way back, I don't like that.. so better cut anything that's been there and is waiting to bloom, whatsoever.


I don't really have plans to start any conversation with him, but my Mom told me that maybe it's time to let go of all the "childish hurt feelings" i have so that everything's will go on smoothly, on both parts. Saying hi, hello or just a simple smile for me is enough. After 5 years, everything's gone. It is time to finally move on. 


Unluckily, this friend of mine I've been talking about during the early part of my FIRST story texted this guy (which I gave not knowing that he still got the same number after 5 years. LIKE AFTER ALL THIS YEARS?), ended up not too well due to unavoidable circumstances and unforeseen events. So what can I do... I don't want my friend to feel that way so I did text him, explaining all the stuffs that had happened, that my friend is not that snobbish and other apologies that are not that "kawawa" naman. I did inform him that I gave his number and that I hope it's okay with him and other blah blahs.


So this, NO REPLIES AFTER A WEEK.


Okay, I'm not expecting anything. If he received that message, well good for him and for my friend. At least everythings been clear now. If he doesn't reply, fine. If he did one day, fine too. I'm not that childy girl who gets sad or mad if my text message doesn't get replied. I don't need any Winnie the Pooh this time to comfort me or for us to be friends again. Let's put it the normal way. If  we just part to meet again, that would be great for the both of us.


And wait, Im having doubts if he did got married na. He is of age, like 5 years of so ang age gap. Good for him. Not good for my friend though. :) But all this years, you still look cute. GUILTY!


SECOND:
Just last year I met this guy from my previous work. I do have some blog posts about him here. I can't dare to read any of them. Maybe because I was too dumb that time. But everything's real and genuine, including how I felt. Maybe I trusted him that fast. Maybe I was dumb. DUMB. period.


Maybe a month ago, he texted me. The usual, "musta na", "ano na balita sayo.".
I actually did got irritated.
If my first story, we didn't end things well.
This one, no closure at all. As if he hanged me somewhere then I died, was renewed, reborn and started a new life without even looking back at the old May-June 2010 things.
Then come at the start of May 2011, I just woke up and realized that I was thinking about him, about the things that had happened, happiness, foolishness and regrets. It was bitter. 
And then comes the day that he texted me.
And I was not happy at all. Wasn't really answering all his questions that well, and even asked my bestfriend to answer for me.
And then comes the time that he added me on facebook.
I was hesitant at first because I for myself DELETED him on my list.
Because I am afraid that I might browse his FB once in a while. (which is what I am doing now. But not once in a while.. **controls myself**)


Sabi nga ng friend ko: Kung babalik sya, sana dati pa!


Maybe if he came back last year, things will be a bit different.
Now, EVERYTHING's DIFFERENT, FADED and FORGOTTEN.
I suggest that this guy come back after 5 years, maybe I'll be able to accept him pa as a friend that easily. Parang yung sa First story ko lang. :)




haaaay, LIFE.
Life, why are you like this.
Why is it that everything's been going too complicated right now.
I can't hardly cope up with what's happening. It's been like UP and DOWN ever since. :(

So THIS...

I broke my promise again for not posting something decent here in my blog last May 19. 

That didn't happen.

So I won't make any promises now because most of them are meant to be broken. 

But not all of them, right? :)

So, I've been uber going gaga with all my scheds. I've been here, the next I'll be there. Then I'll be somewhere, anywhere and everywhere. 

I can't even reserve myself for my own self.

Isn't that pathetic? Ugh. Life, where are you. 

I actually wanna do things my own way right now. Life has been a bit harsh for me. 

Looking for a new job, then lots of opportunity are coming in, trying to have it my way. Then I can't even decide where I'll be going because I've been waiting for that particular company to call me, interview me and give me a job offer. 

Then I'll be the happiest. 

But up until now, I've been eagerly waiting for that news to come.

I've been to lots of churches na, as in! I want that job too badly.

Pero sabi nga nila, if it's not for you, God won't give it. Greater things are in store for you, in his own time. 

But when's the time?

Patience is a virtue, and yet Time is Gold.

Shame on me..

Because I don't have enough time to post some decent and readable entry now in my blog.

I promise to make it up to you, my dear blog.

Everything's under construction including me.

Will get back to you hopefully tomorrow night. :)

My Friendster blog

I'm gonna save all the things I've written on my friendster blog.

Those were the days that I've been really trying hard to be a blogger, the root of everything.

And there comes a point where I blog so that my crush can see it.

hahahaha!

I'm a reader of his blog too. <3

The friendster tool said that they can export everything here in blogger.

Can't wait!

Game Face On!

It has been a VERY busy week. My body is aching all over a couple of days ago because I was on the run here and there, then and now. Thank god for Biogesic (and to papa John lloyd as well).

Tomorrow morning is the start of another business. O help us God!

Handling one is quite easy, actually my parents left it under my responsibility because I can handle it well, but now that we have 2.. I think we have to go over stuffs double time.

When I was in college, I decided to took up Marketing because I believe that this will be of great help when I put up a business of my own. Now, I need entrepreneurial skills. Putting up a business is no joke, handling one is truly a serious business.

And then I'm also at the point of looking for a new job. Hello employers! Please call me as soon as possible if you have vacancies right for me. I am a marketing management graduate and has experience in the field of Advertising. Yes, I've been choosy na for my next company. Been declining interview offers this past few days. Must choose the best na talaga. So help me God too!

Reasons Why I Go Hysterical (today)

Today is a hysterical day. I think I went hysterical 3 times today. saaad.
Why did I went hysterical?


- because of what I saw in FB.
- because of the slow internet.
- because of all the business requirements that we need to settle.
- because I'm missing a lot of points. (ironical speaking)
- because I'm missing a lot of people these past few days.
- because Miley Cyrus is coming hear this June (who cares)
- because YOU are better with wires. :)


Just an opinion.
Hey, wait.. what's the next good movie to watch? ♥