Happy Father's Day

Lots of Good Vibes for today.

Got another opportunity for a multinational / pharmaceutical company. 

I don't know where should I be during these times. Maybe, I just have to grab every opportunity that goes my way. I know that God will put me to some place where I truly deserve.

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At some point, there are things that I regret doing and I'm regretting something now. 

A couple of weeks ago, I gave my number to someone who is a friend of this guy who faithfully keeps on asking my number fore almost a year now.

And as for my part, I faithfully reject him and kept my number away from him.

And here I am,  giving my number to his friend/sidekick without thinking that sooner or later she will give it to the guy.

Im just the most stupid girl on earth.

And here;s my stupid plan: To do not text him at any cost. Diba it will look like I am the most suplada girl in the world? But that's how I'm really feeling right now. I will not reply him ever. If I'll reply, maybe after a day or two.

(But it still means I'll reply him, right?)

Okay. I just don't like this feeling. Some things are just not right. And maybe he should have befriended me way back college days. Hello!

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But amidst all the confusion I am undergoing nowadays, Happy Father's Day to my Dad.

He is here to be with my Mom to celebrate Father's Day. I honestly do not remember when's the last Father's Day I've celebrated with him. I am just too grateful and thankful to God for giving me this opportunity to spend this Father's Day with my Dad. I know I am lucky to have him in my life. :)

CGF's

At Trinoma / Contis with college friends

(from left to right)

Gelo, Masie, Joan, Kim, Me and Debbie. 

♥

The Last Song

I'll be reading this book! Thank You to the sister of my higschool friend for lending me this one!

Though I don't want book covers similar to those of the movies, it's okay. I'm just borrowing this, mkay? :)
I prefer the original one of Nicholas Sparks.

She also has the "Dear John" book.
I have bad memories with that movie. I'd rather toss that book right into the face of that one person.
hahahaha! kidding.
Excited to read na! :)

Gray area of life

Last 2 weeks was like "reminiscing the past" weeks.
I've encountered guys who have been a part of my life in one way or another.
I won't drop names or anything.
Everything's in gray area.


FIRST:
Because one of my friends is in "dire need" (let's term it in a dramatic way :p) to be friends with this particualr person. Let's just say that this person is an inspiration to my friend for like 5 tears already. Though there are times that it is being forgotten, the feeling still lingers on. Why, thank you to "Water for Elephants" movie, some things that were like patches before are somewhat clearing up.


A day after we've been talking about this guy, I saw him naman sa mall. Like it's somewhat a destiny to be seeing him again after, what.. a year or two? Now, the problem lies on me because our friendship ended up not in a way that we wanted it to be. I was too childish that time, and he's not yet that mature so not one of us is serious. It's like everything's just like a game, something like a beneficial game. And as young as I was way back, I don't like that.. so better cut anything that's been there and is waiting to bloom, whatsoever.


I don't really have plans to start any conversation with him, but my Mom told me that maybe it's time to let go of all the "childish hurt feelings" i have so that everything's will go on smoothly, on both parts. Saying hi, hello or just a simple smile for me is enough. After 5 years, everything's gone. It is time to finally move on. 


Unluckily, this friend of mine I've been talking about during the early part of my FIRST story texted this guy (which I gave not knowing that he still got the same number after 5 years. LIKE AFTER ALL THIS YEARS?), ended up not too well due to unavoidable circumstances and unforeseen events. So what can I do... I don't want my friend to feel that way so I did text him, explaining all the stuffs that had happened, that my friend is not that snobbish and other apologies that are not that "kawawa" naman. I did inform him that I gave his number and that I hope it's okay with him and other blah blahs.


So this, NO REPLIES AFTER A WEEK.


Okay, I'm not expecting anything. If he received that message, well good for him and for my friend. At least everythings been clear now. If he doesn't reply, fine. If he did one day, fine too. I'm not that childy girl who gets sad or mad if my text message doesn't get replied. I don't need any Winnie the Pooh this time to comfort me or for us to be friends again. Let's put it the normal way. If  we just part to meet again, that would be great for the both of us.


And wait, Im having doubts if he did got married na. He is of age, like 5 years of so ang age gap. Good for him. Not good for my friend though. :) But all this years, you still look cute. GUILTY!


SECOND:
Just last year I met this guy from my previous work. I do have some blog posts about him here. I can't dare to read any of them. Maybe because I was too dumb that time. But everything's real and genuine, including how I felt. Maybe I trusted him that fast. Maybe I was dumb. DUMB. period.


Maybe a month ago, he texted me. The usual, "musta na", "ano na balita sayo.".
I actually did got irritated.
If my first story, we didn't end things well.
This one, no closure at all. As if he hanged me somewhere then I died, was renewed, reborn and started a new life without even looking back at the old May-June 2010 things.
Then come at the start of May 2011, I just woke up and realized that I was thinking about him, about the things that had happened, happiness, foolishness and regrets. It was bitter. 
And then comes the day that he texted me.
And I was not happy at all. Wasn't really answering all his questions that well, and even asked my bestfriend to answer for me.
And then comes the time that he added me on facebook.
I was hesitant at first because I for myself DELETED him on my list.
Because I am afraid that I might browse his FB once in a while. (which is what I am doing now. But not once in a while.. **controls myself**)


Sabi nga ng friend ko: Kung babalik sya, sana dati pa!


Maybe if he came back last year, things will be a bit different.
Now, EVERYTHING's DIFFERENT, FADED and FORGOTTEN.
I suggest that this guy come back after 5 years, maybe I'll be able to accept him pa as a friend that easily. Parang yung sa First story ko lang. :)




haaaay, LIFE.
Life, why are you like this.
Why is it that everything's been going too complicated right now.
I can't hardly cope up with what's happening. It's been like UP and DOWN ever since. :(

So THIS...

I broke my promise again for not posting something decent here in my blog last May 19. 

That didn't happen.

So I won't make any promises now because most of them are meant to be broken. 

But not all of them, right? :)

So, I've been uber going gaga with all my scheds. I've been here, the next I'll be there. Then I'll be somewhere, anywhere and everywhere. 

I can't even reserve myself for my own self.

Isn't that pathetic? Ugh. Life, where are you. 

I actually wanna do things my own way right now. Life has been a bit harsh for me. 

Looking for a new job, then lots of opportunity are coming in, trying to have it my way. Then I can't even decide where I'll be going because I've been waiting for that particular company to call me, interview me and give me a job offer. 

Then I'll be the happiest. 

But up until now, I've been eagerly waiting for that news to come.

I've been to lots of churches na, as in! I want that job too badly.

Pero sabi nga nila, if it's not for you, God won't give it. Greater things are in store for you, in his own time. 

But when's the time?

Patience is a virtue, and yet Time is Gold.

Shame on me..

Because I don't have enough time to post some decent and readable entry now in my blog.

I promise to make it up to you, my dear blog.

Everything's under construction including me.

Will get back to you hopefully tomorrow night. :)

My Friendster blog

I'm gonna save all the things I've written on my friendster blog.

Those were the days that I've been really trying hard to be a blogger, the root of everything.

And there comes a point where I blog so that my crush can see it.

hahahaha!

I'm a reader of his blog too. <3

The friendster tool said that they can export everything here in blogger.

Can't wait!

Game Face On!

It has been a VERY busy week. My body is aching all over a couple of days ago because I was on the run here and there, then and now. Thank god for Biogesic (and to papa John lloyd as well).

Tomorrow morning is the start of another business. O help us God!

Handling one is quite easy, actually my parents left it under my responsibility because I can handle it well, but now that we have 2.. I think we have to go over stuffs double time.

When I was in college, I decided to took up Marketing because I believe that this will be of great help when I put up a business of my own. Now, I need entrepreneurial skills. Putting up a business is no joke, handling one is truly a serious business.

And then I'm also at the point of looking for a new job. Hello employers! Please call me as soon as possible if you have vacancies right for me. I am a marketing management graduate and has experience in the field of Advertising. Yes, I've been choosy na for my next company. Been declining interview offers this past few days. Must choose the best na talaga. So help me God too!

Reasons Why I Go Hysterical (today)

Today is a hysterical day. I think I went hysterical 3 times today. saaad.
Why did I went hysterical?


- because of what I saw in FB.
- because of the slow internet.
- because of all the business requirements that we need to settle.
- because I'm missing a lot of points. (ironical speaking)
- because I'm missing a lot of people these past few days.
- because Miley Cyrus is coming hear this June (who cares)
- because YOU are better with wires. :)


Just an opinion.
Hey, wait.. what's the next good movie to watch? ♥

When you start to give advices to a shy person...

Yes, late night last night made my entire Friday good. It's because one of my guy college blockmate was so freaking out at his Twitter account because a girl texted him late night. Like he was the luckiest man alive. Obviously, he likes this girl.

To cut the story short, he is SHY.TORPE. So I gave him some advices to stop being shy, to go get a move and bridge that gap between that girl. He asked for some of it from me so I gave out what my other friends had adviced me just recently. If he hadn't asked in the first place.. I bet 100% that I won't be able to give him what he needs and want to hear because I'm on the same position. Yesterday, today and will always be.

Final advice: Ask this girl out because you'll never know what's the real deal not until you discover it yourself. 

I just can't believe I did gave him an advice.

I saw a video of Oprah interviewing America's best seller guru about marriages and relationships, saying that she has the perfect marriage, only to find out that she lied to Oprah all this time.

It is easier said than done. That's the motto. 

Which seat should I take?

It's Friday today! Rebecca Black day!
This girl has been trending on twitter for 2 weeks already. tsk tsk!
Well, she's pretty but I don't like her songs. I used to love Friday.. TGIF. But everytime I think of Fridays, I think about her. :((


Okay, so my subject doesn't make any connection to what I wanted to blog today. And I don;t really know what to blog. I just feel so tired today. Seems like 8 hours of sleep is soo not enough for me. I slept at 4pm again this afternoon, woke up at 6pm.. then went outside for some business-related stuffs.


And now, I am wide awake listening to ♫ So Big by Iyaz ♫


I think I'm missing something in my life right now, and I am slowly feeling the heaviness of it. I got a clue now to whatever it is, but I don't know how to have it. Or maybe, I know how to have it but I don't know when will I have it.


I am so confused. I wanted to do things. But I can't.


Capital sad. :(




EDIT: 1:40am
So here I am having my own problems, but still giving out advices to a guy friend who happens to be SHY. TORPE. haha! And he happens to love my advices. How ironic? This made my day! :) 


If only I can say the same advices to that guy!

Random Thoughts: 23rd of March

It is my first time to be proud for a government service. I was a bit too doubtful about lots of our government's services because for the fact that they are SLOW most of the time.

But kudos to DTI! The fastest and smoothest government service I've ever experienced. First, you get to register your business through online (less the hassle to go to their office) and pay fees through Globe G-cash. Very very good indeed!

Passed all the documents this afternoon and yes!

I HAVE MY OWN BUSINESS! woohoo! :)

Im planning to register one more. Have fears that some might get the name of my online shop, it's very dear to me.. so back-off, okay. 

Random Thoughts: 22nd of March - 2am

After several tries of convincing myself that I can't do it.

That I am too shy to do it and that I've got no guts to click that button.

I DID.

And what an awesome relief. haha!

I wonder if it will feel the same if I tell to that same person the only thing that I've been ever longing to say.

I guess it will.

Now, I can peacefully and lovingly sleep well, without any doubts and worries. :)

Random Thoughts: 22nd of March

Okay, up until now I can't seem to condition myself and my mind that I have to sleep early.
I need to adjust my body clock now.. 1 hour earlier because I want to wake up one hour earlier than the usual. Im tired of waking-up 11am, EVERYDAY!
Oops! Sorry for those who seem to lack sleep.
I was once like that, believe me!


So here I am. Watching videos of Mikey Bustos and something Rebecca Black related.
And yes, I am still tempted to send you a DM. 
It's been like an hour.
Are you working? Or are you already asleep. Maybe forgot to go offline?
I'm tempted. SUPER! Please go offline.
Or rather NO. Please stay online. :)

Random Thoughts: 20th of March

You love her right? Or is it infatuation you feel? Either way, you feel something special for her. Are you going to succumb to your misery or are you going to stand up, be a man, and tell her how you feel? Remember, the outcome depends on whatever happened before that.

Which can also be translated to:

You love him right? Or is it infatuation you feel? Either way, you feel something special for him. Are you going to succumb to your misery or are you going to stand up, be a man, and tell him how you feel? Remember, the outcome depends on whatever happened before that. 

Just Always Pray At Night :)

I got too scared reading all those articles and watching all those videos about the current state of Japan and what might happen next. I doubt if I can sleep well tonight. I got goosebumps while reading Our Lady of Peace predictions from chuvaness' blog: Did Our Lady Of Peace predict Japan's Big Earthquake Last Christmas. I'm not really a fan of reading this kind of predictions because I don't want to know what lies in the future and I want to live loong enough because I've still got lots of plans and dreams waiting for me to fulfill them. And reading some of this makes me feel disappointed and sad. But I think reading some is very timely today.

But this one is really scary. It mentions something about Luzon. I don't know any place here on earth that can be associated to Luzon.. only the Philippines.

3441. Message from Our Lady of Peace, Anguera, Bahia, Brazil. transmitted in 19/02/2011
Dear Sons and Daughters, have courage, faith, and hope. Firmly believe n the power of God, and tomorrow will be better. Bend your knees in prayer. Those who remain faithful to the end will not experience defeat. I am your sorrowful Mother, and I suffer because of what is coming to you. Pay attention. Don't cross your arms. Your time is short, and the moment has come for your conversion. Death will pass through Punta Cana and leave a great trail of destruction. Luzon will live the agony on one condemned. Pray. Pray. Pray. I don't want to obligate you, but what I say should be taken seriously. Forward on the way I have pointed out. This is the message I transmit to you today in the name of the Most Holy Trinity. Thank you for permitting Me to reunite you here once more. I bless you in the name of The Father, and of The Son, and of The Holy Spirit. Amen. Be at Peace.

We don't have relatives and friends in Japan so that makes us quite relieved.. pero everytime I watch the news, nakakapanghina lang talaga. Im too weak for this kind of things. I even asked my Mom what will she do if ever Manila will be strucked with an earthquake. And then, I even worry about our cute cats. :( When that moment comes, you just know what to do next. Presence of mind and I'll just stick with my Mom all the time, no matter what.

I don't know what to do in order to remove my mind from such things. Maybe just look forward for the Maroon 5 concert? No, not helping.

Lord, please spare us. We put our trust in you. 

Dorothy On The Rocks

"We breathe to create", thus life should be spent with much love, happiness and peace of mind.

This book is filled with scotch, cigarettes, the theater, role playing, love and of moving-on. :)

Off to my next book!

Bliss :)

Notice the smile on my face as I start to blog. :)

My own bliss did not happen today nor yesterday. It happened way back morning of February 14 when the universe finally gave me the courage to do the thing that should be done, for the sake of continuing something that is near its end (well, at least of my part).

Yesterday might not be that special.. but it is a product of something that was just a fragment of my mind, a part of me where confusion and holding back is of big presence. Hesitation, hesitation, hesitation, excitement and lots of hesitation. But never did it occur to me that hesitation is present on both parties. I saw it coming, but not that way that almost made my heart fell. Good thing you picked it up and placed it on its right place. 

Yes, travel time was one heck of a ride.

Was there 7:30pm

Never will let you know that I am all ready 30 mins before.

Walking to ease the panic, the excitement, and literally myself.

But you are just pretty suave, pretty fast.

Girls will never be like that, mysteries I will never ever learn.

I know now that you are scared, was meant to make the experience a bit comedic, but I was just too stunned with the movie as well. (sorry. :p )

Cozy little place for yogurts

Green biodegradable spoons are just the cutest

And yes, Draco Malfoy spotted in Manila. :)

If I can just say how you made me smile.

If I can just shout that I am the happiest

If I can just know what 's on your mind.

If only the universe gave me that same courage to ask.

That day was meant for fun.

Soon, everything will be clear.

I won't let this go away. :)

March 3

It's March 3 and there's a lot of things to be happy and excited about this day. :)

So yes, I am happy just to cover my last blogpost about buying me the stars.

My friends will buy me STARbucks and honeySTARS instead. Simpler things are much appreciated.

Okay, I am happy. And I can't say really why I am.

I am excited, so please no spoilers.

By the way, please like the entry of my friend for VEET ME promo where she will get the chance to win the grand prize. Grand prize lang naman is Apple IPAD and date with Daniel Matsunaga.

Naku, kung makapal lang talaga face ko.. sasali ako dyan. swear. haha!

To vote, please click on the link below:

http://www.veetme2011.com/veet-me-spin-a-veet/

You can like 15 times per day until March 27!

Here's the actual video, and I am the one behind the camera lens. hahahaha! :)) No guts to show my face on public youtube and veet me sites.

Thanks so much for voting! ♥

Can You Buy Me the Stars?

It actually frustrates me to blog about this because this involves the past. The past isn't worth remembering, it is meant to be forgotten. But again, the past somewhat hunts me.


It all started last night. I was busy surfing FB then I saw that greeting which somewhat punched me slightly inside my chest. It is weird, but yes I know why I felt that way. It is weird, and I don't want that feeling.


Then it was followed by the Lady Gaga "Born This Way" music video - which left me scared and made me forget what I just felt minutes ago. The video was really scary, crazy and out of this world. Out of this world in a sense that it was shot in outer space? I read it somewhere and I bet the first part was the one in outer space? Well, it can be shot inside a studio, why go for an out of space adventure? It is just plain crazy.


Then, for the double whammy heartbreaking commotion on my facebook wall, I saw pictures tagged to one of my friends. This friend of mine should be better left unnamed. The pictures were heartbreaking, at least for my part.


Why do I have to see those things all in one night?


First - the greeting (i got none?)
Second - the scary video
Third - tagged picture of those post vday gift.


When I was young I dreamt to have those, and now they are all gone.


This blogpost is really nonsense, and is full of those emotional highschool stuffs.
But still, she got the stars and I don't have any.


And the letter was just heartbreakingly sweet. I just can imagine what if I was the one in her shoes. I will be the happiest.


But all of those are just plain GONE.


And now, I am left in a road where all I have to do is risk to someone whom I'm not really sure of. :(


I'll be waiting for that one person to buy me the stars, and yes.. I will be the happiest.